yikes. just took those day #1 pictures and now I'm regretting the fact that I sent the link to this blog out to some people...but I know this is part of the project! And I'm going to continue to give people the link, even if knowing that those pictures are up there makes me cringe for the next few weeks. But hopefully soon I'll be proud of what happens with the pictures, right? sigh. i hope so.
Wait, I had a plan for this post. I won't be deterred by the photos!
So aside from worrying about my busted toe, and whether or not i'll be able to do the PCP exercises tomorrow (i'm constantly icing and elevating! what more can i do?!), I'm thinking about alienation a little bit today, and how I'm going to deal with the potential isolation that PCP might bring.
I've done various against-the-grain things in my life; I went to a women's college, I ran a marathon, I gave away my television, I've dedicated my professional life to advocating for "alternative means of transportation". There are probably others, many others, but those are a few obvious ways that I've alienated myself from various groups/individuals/audiences, including, at times, friends and family members. (They're also a few ways I've followed my heart and improved my life!)
As excited as I am about beginning the PCP, I'm also nervous about how this is going to set me apart from others. I have already had trouble explaining to people what PCP is (I don't even completely know myself yet, so that might be part of the problem...), but I can already see the familiar glazed-over looks, defensiveness or just general confusion. This bums me out not because I need 100% support from everyone (I have my fellow PCPers for that, right!), but because when I discover something wonderful, I want to be able to share it without making people feel that I'm judging their choices or preferences.
I think part of my process within this project is going to be a practice in how to relate to people better about my passions - about PCP, but also about other interests and projects in my life. In some ways I'm a born outreach person, always recruiting people to various activities and causes, but that doesn't mean that I'm necessarily always good at it, or sensitive to how I come across.
Another thing to work on for these 90 days...